is about to go to bed

Sometimes, I start to title my blogs as if they are a status on facebook.

is glad that God is good.
wants to fight the evil minions in her head.
anxiously anticipates the hope of the future.

supposes that this habit is similar to the one that makes her type "reply" first before replying in an email. oops.

loves her friends.

Never Again-Griffin House

Never again am I gonna give my heart to a bullshit cause
I’ve had enough of lies and dark
Never again am I gonna waste my time on a bullshit road
It’s never been a friend of mine
Simple words from a simple man
Take me as I am ‘cause there’s no guarantee I’ll ever change
To feel like this, to know distress, to always wonder why
Ah, forgive me any way I go
Father, I know, I feel like I’m made to let you down
Brother, I know, I’m failing to come through
To feel like this, to know distress, to always wonder why
If you lead me anywhere I’ll go

Well it’s plain to see that I don’t fit in
And I tried to find a place to hide
My body’s always been too young for the soul that’s trapped inside
But I’d show the color of my eyes to everyone around
And it’d take an angel seven years to come and calm me down
I’ll never understand myself or know the reasons why
In my bed alone at night I learned to be afraid to die
My soul is frozen stiff inside my skin
Paralyzed by thoughts that I’ve let in
Father, I know, I feel like I’m made to let you down
Brother, I know, I’m failing to come through
To feel like this, to know distress, to always wonder why
If you take me…anywhere I’ll go
Wherever you are going…take me by the hand
If you lead me…anywhere I’ll go

Death Cab.

The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms.

Lalalala lalalala

I drove in London while eating cantaloupe, listening to the polka song written for me.

Actually I didn't.

Is there someone else?

"No, but there is the dream of someone else"

-You've Got Mail

... one of my favorite lines ...

also:

"All that means is it wasn't personal to you. It's personal to me. It's personal to a lot of people. And what's so wrong with being personal anyway. Whateverelse anything is it aughta begin by being personal."

Sunday Morning Rain is Falling

In the short span of a few hours I've accomplished quite a number of things and crossed them off of my list.

Now, I'm not much of a list person... in the sense that I'd rather not have one if possible.  But I am a list person when it comes to getting things done. It feels great to have less and less on a list.

I had made plans for a coffee date with Lizzy at 1.  Thinking it was Monday, I was quite surprised to find people sleeping on my couch.  So I had to cancel and move the date till after church.. but I feel guilty, because I think that might be a bit too late for a school night... there was hesitation in getting permission.

and on that note.

na na na na life goes on.

even though it all still hurts like yesterday.

na na na na life goes on.

So Tired

Last night I checked to make sure my alarm was off...

I apparently checked wrong.

It took me an hour this morning to realize that i was waking up every 9 minutes because my alarm was going off.

I was even pressing the snooze button, and STILL didn't get it.

Woulda Coulda Shoulda

today would be 1.5 years.  Scary. 

Creative

I always want to be creative. and intriguing in my writing.  But all I hear in my head are songs.

Singing.

and today it's Toby Lightman... "Color"

God Answers

I sat this morning before God.

I asked Him to remind me who He is.

and a voice inside me decided to turn to Psalm 37 (not thinking about what might it be)

-- and everything I needed to hear was there.

4.8  23.24. 30. 

Heroes

"Who among the world of strangers will hold our hand..."

What I Need to Know...

God is Good.

Rejoice always, and again I say rejoice.

Life is but a mist.

My God is an all consuming fire.

Love beyond measure.

Lay down your life.

The last will be first.

God's power is manifested in weakness.

Not to us, but to Him be the Glory.

"It's not I who live, but Christ in me."

As a branch, I'd like the fruit that comes from being part of a Jesus tree.

...since sliced bread

How cool is sliced bread really?

I mean, we're always saying (well maybe not always) that something is the coolest thing since sliced bread...

But has anyone ever stopped to think about how awesome it is to have a pure unadulterated loaf of bread... I mean you can just rip of a piece and it tastes much better when it isn't flat...

I mean, don't we all really love rolls?

I've decided that I am NOT the coolest thing since sliced bread.

The light bulb, maybe.

But not sliced bread.

Beanpot

We won.
We're the best ever!
GO BU!

BC Sucks.

Gilmore

We're almost there and no where near it. All that matters is that we're going.
-Laureli Gilmore

You're a stranger now unto me.

Its a still life water color,
Of a now late afternoon,
As the sun shines through the curtained lace
And shadows wash the room.
And we sit and drink our coffee
Couched in our indifference,
Like shells upon the shore
You can hear the ocean roar
In the dangling conversation
And the superficial sighs,
Are the borders of our lives.
Simon and Garfunkel

Life is Good

Like a T-Shirt.

"I'm satisfied by Your love so completely, How can I thirst for the praises of men, there's nothing I need that you haven't provided no one can offer me peace like you can."

--

Your love is enough, I don't need man's applause, I know what I'm worth, I remember the cross."

--

"My heart knows your love like it flows through my veins, Such peace and contentment, I've found in your grace, I cant think why I ever complained, you love me what more can I want, I'm sustained"

-----

I sing these words and they echo deep inside me.  And yet I struggle with living them.  Oh that I were not human.

If I were a movie

I would be 27 Dresses.

I'm pretty sure.

Can hardly contain...

Have I mentioned that Boston University has the NUMBER 1 ranked hockey team in the country this year?  Oh yes, that's right, we're AWESOME!  And I'm so so so excited, I love BU Hockey.

And, the Bean Pot Finals are on Monday night!  At which time we will win our 28th (i believe) Bean Pot title.

Schneider, Schneider (even though you graduated) YOU SUCK! Sieve Sieve Sieve Sieve.

Missing Boston something terrible...

Quote of the Day

"Don't shoot babies when they're unarmed"

just another day.

I've been sleeping in... more than is normal for me.

But I started the day in bed.

              After lunch, the warm weather enticed me to sit and read on the dock.  And it was loverly. I'm reading Francis Chan's "Crazy Love" and it was the perfect setting in which to read the first chapter.

later... after dinner...

I decided that I wanted to have frozen yogurt.  So I coaxed Jen into traveling with me to ghetto Dinuba for some TCBY... which turned out to be at the Texaco.  It was a great diversion.